No Boundries

I have always known i loved the thught of complete and udder freedom, but in one way I'm also completely scared of it. Today, i went to Inkerman Public Schools final celebration. This is because they are closing this year, so myself, my mother, and my sister joined us at inkerman. I must say it was a very, very sad time. Myself, Kristie ( my sis ), and Thomas Giles, walked to old spooky, which is this tree that has been there for ages, and everyone calls it "old Spooky" and while I'm walking all around this property which was my home from 1995-2003, I was thinking, It was the end of an era when i left here, oh so many years ago, and this is one way makes me happy because, coming to the end of my high school career, I'm starting to think its gunna be ok. I think of myself back when i was so young, and laugh, and wonder why my mother let me leave the house the way i Looked. like OMG, it was terrible :P but enough of this..



So has anyone ever really thought about why rap has such a great following, I mean it shouldnt even be considered music. It is possibly the wors t thing i could ever hear. I mean the same with Screamo music, you dont even know what theyre saying. No im thinking that to have any connection with music at all, you at least be able to hear the words and sing along without needing a tonsil replacment by the end of your song. Honestly, someone tell me what the attration to rap or screamo is... I dont get it. jeeze.



Another thought to leave you with. So ive been reading a lot of fan fictions lately (http://www.fanfiction.net/) and I mean some of these people are really good! they are so descriptive and its hard to stay away from the site. Yes, i know you're thinking "what does she read on fan fiction?" or you could be asking yourself "why do I read this blog?" and the answer to the first one is twilight, and the second is because you simply love me! haha. so thats it for today sorry for not writing for a while! hugz and kisses!
Kait <3

Right Here

So as I sit here on my lovely blue couch, which is tres comfortable i've decided to take a break from working and chemistry to tell my three followers what is new and exciting this last weeks blog... Well not a hole lot.. wanna put some rumours down though (*cough*cough* Ian Cough*) I am not IN love with josh. I love him, just not in love. but other than that, we bffs.
So this weekend was fairly busy, I have went to three parties. On Friday I went to Kyle Mordy moving in party, Saturday I went to jessie D's surprize party, and the third was last night, and that was the Huttens (sunday night) as this is a long weekend we have no school today (monday) as it is Victoria day, and ALSO IS AWESOME CAUSE I HATE SCHOOL! haha. well I hate the working part, but I love the people there. As they are tres awesome.
So, recently I have decided I don't have a place where I actually fit in. Like, I have the friends and such, but i don't have a label, and your prolly thinking, well why am i worried about that. and the reason is b/c what if people don't remember me. and I find that hard, I want people to remember me. which I hope you all will!
So there's this boy, and i'm writing this to get my frustrations down, so don't get to hyped. I remember when we kissed i can still feel it in my lips, I remember the simple things. My biggest regret, the one i wish you'd forget is saying nothing at all. and You'd rather be with her, the other prettier girl, but She's taken. You can't simply let that go, and i have no idea why you can't. But, I guess it's the same for me. I'm as pathetic. and i know that, it's just I dont see what the problem is. i get that im not the orettiest girl on the street, but i think im kinda kool. and I guess the reason why i'm getting so worked up about this is because it took me so long to admit this thing for you to myself. That its like AHH and it makes me want to slap you. But I wont cause that would be to obvious. and im not that mean,but frig i wish you would take me to prom. BUT you wont, because you dont think of me like that.. whesther it be your friends advice, or your own thought, or it could be that girl you cant seem to get over. but whatever. I'm over it.
i guess that's all i should write today. Love you all!
<3 kait

P.S so not over it. and remember appearances can be deicving ( or words so dont jump to conclusions)

When I'm Quiet You Break Through My shell

This is to blog about my awesome cool friend Leigh! Leigh Alexandra Warren is one of the coolest people i know most of the time. She's in love with things such a her dalmation Joey, Guiseppi, Joesph, Yoseph, She loves the park ( Murphy's Point) and she lives to laugh. Leigh is the type of girl whom can make you smile when she wants to. She is definatley not afraid to speak her mind. Leigh puts up a hard shell outside and has a hard time letting people in. But when she does, you will figure out the kind caring person she is!
Leigh has a great personality that i am actually quite jealous of. She does what she wants and gemerally doesnt care what people think of her. She does what she thinks is best for her. For example, if she wants to have fun, she will, and nothing human can stop her, except for mom, but we work around that :P! Leigh is obsessed with jake and Amir ( college humour check em out!) Leighs obsessions dont tend to last to long. I remember this one time her flair account could not get more use.. Thus today, i have not recieved any flair. :(
Leigh is truly awesome and she tends to wear red to show how dignified she is. She holds herself well and makes you feel like you deserve to be there. She is truly legendary. and i Love her!

Now Josh Loucks. I promised I'd write a blog about you!
J-justified
O-Ostentatious
S- Shivalistic
H- humourous

josh you are these things and many more to me. You know the things that make me smile, and when i;m around you i feel like i truly shine. and your responsible for that. You give everyone this impression that you are a jackass, which in some cases you are, and you can definatley be stubborn. I just got him to use this brand new thing called a LAND LINE, but since his cell is fixed i'll have to start all over. Joshua Loucks you truly are my hero. and i LUH you alot!

Want me to write a blog about you?? comment!
<3 kait

Writers Block

So I have writers block, and i know its not the right term to describe it, BUT I cannot for the life of me figure what to blog about. I mean it could be about my day, and how its going so far, or about something actually intense like Politics. but as I know Ian may read these and critisize this so Im not gunna try. But, however, whatever, I will talk about the things people do that make me want to punch them in the face and laugh when they fall on the ground. I know it's harsh but come on! Firstly, when people park sideways in parking spots, I know what happened marissa, but come on. and when people walk through doors look at you with a cold stare and keep walking, without saying thank you. Thats makes me so mad. I'm there waiting fr you to walk through the door, and all you can do is walk past me like your better than I am, well maybe thats the truth, but when it comes to getting actual friends I'd kick your butt anyday. Thirdly, i absolutley hate it when people insult you and put it off as a joke. They ohh. they see you. and basically walk all over you for 2 years and you keep it up, then one day they decide they hate you and expect y ou to come back after everything. I also, hate people who are purposly ego tististical and expect you to fall in love with them just because they are in your presence. and hate your friend just because they think her VOICE is annoying. I mean she can't change that. Its a birth defect ( not that i dont like your voice hun) but frig.
But enough hating, as i am not a very hatefull person. I like a lot of things to. Starting with a certain person whom did not tease me like usual after a bad test mark ( really bad) and im not saying I like him romantically, but honestly it was sweet of him, and I was proud to be his friend at the time, so if your reading this thanks for not being a jack ass! luh you! haha. also. I really like my friends. you guys are great. I also love music. but lastly, I like this person, who is great. but I'm going to ball hockey! bye!

Prom Fantasy

*disclaimer: I'm not usually this corny*

I see you, in the laneway with all of our closest friends. i see the way your hair is perfectly messy and how your smile glints in the lowly declining light. Your turn around to face me. and that ever present sparkle in your eyes intensifies as you see me. You're happy to be here as you walk over to me and put that beautiful red corsage on my wrist. you give me a kiss on my cheek and lead me over to the trees where everyone seems to be. Theres flowers in my hair along with sparkly beads. I cant tell you are truly enjoying this as you take my hand and position for the endless pictures my mom will surely take. but you smile through them all, like a good sport. We get into the black, stretch limo with all of our friends, we crack open the bottle of champagne bought for us, even though i dont like it, ill have some to join in the festivities. We get there. you tell me i look beautiful. i tell you that you look almost worthy to be my date. but, truthfully, your just perfect. youre who i envision myself with.
We walk into the building, you pull a rose from a bouquet and hand it to me. and then we pose for pictures under the beautiful arc... we walk into the main lobby. and music is playing... I go off and talk with a couple girlfriends. and you walk over take my hand and lead me onto the dance floor. I am amazed by your transformation. Your being the Giant Teddy Bear i ALWAYS knew you were. You have this power over me. you can get me to do anything. your my cryptonite. I have this influence over you as well, i can calm you down you never seem to get mad at me. i tell you on the dance floor "this is the moment you fall in love with me, isn't it" and then i laugh, you look at me, hold me tighter and just smile. You lean down and gently press your lips against the nape of my neck, and whisper "maybe" in my ear. I smile the happiest smile i've ever had. i look into your deep brown eyes and lean in closer. I can smell the sweet scent of your breath... then slowly you kiss me, for the first time ever. and it felt like so long of time has passed. when only a few seconds have.. I look up at your face, and your smiling, happier then the one before. Every thing seems to be in place, to bad it's all over.

Survival

The textbook definition is to remain or continue in exsistence, but exsistance in what form exactly? You could exsist in memory or you could exsist in life. Today-- there are so many teenagers just walking around trying to survive high school. In my highschool though, there is a little bit of an imbalance, i mean you still have the jocks, the preps, the stoners, the geeks and then the nerds/anime. but, there its different, the people that mostly pick on other people are thier friends. and sometimes this can be a good/normal thing to do. then it goes to far, to far that you begin to no trust a person, to not be there for them, it becomes a raft floating aimlessly in an open ocean. and who's to say that this metaphorical raft can eventually find its way back to its normal place in the world, but what if its stuck in that one state for the rest of time until a tidal wave crashes down upon it and its feels like your sufficating and theres nothing to stop it, then you fade to nothingness, a state in which you can feel nothing. So i guess what im getting to is that you can survuve without actually living; you just have to be and its sad that the thought of death runs through everyones minds as an easy out, which it is,im not denying that fact.
I guess getting back to the fact that everyone can finds ways to survive its just the living part that everyone finds hard. like how can you honestly not be dead in a living state, aside from all the poor souls put on life support, (which would never be me) im just saying that everyone puts up a big hype about how theyre surviving, but what really needs to be done is the living. even to the point of hurt, but thats just emotions and humans feel right?

until next time,
kait

Nothing ever turns Out as planned. EVER

FUCKINGERIKCUMGUZZLINGDICKSUCKINGMUTHERFUCKINGASSHOLEPEICEOFSHITTRASHBAGSONOFABITCHDOUCHESLIMEBLOCKHEADEDFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's all Erik's fault >(

Erik Hutten wrote the above.

It was not as bad as night as i thought, i definatly should eat before drinking next time, i mean two coolers and i was gone :P but whatevs. btw boys are scary! cept for the cool ones (aka me) :P but im not actually a boy. i just say i am

My First Time... Blogging

so this is my first blog and I have to say that I got on to it from the kind (a.k.a weird people) over there a lucathla.blogspot.com. and i don't really know what to write about that will spark some interest among yous. but here we go. So today i was pondering away and what i was pondering about was how flippin' lazy i am, i procrastinate everything, and it's def. not a good thing. I mean homework, and chores, and on rare occasions eating. like i'll be sitting on the couch thinking "i'm hungry" and not wanting to get up to find something.
Also, im fairly sure my chemistry teach, M.M, has this evil little demon within his soul who loves to see me suffer. I mean he sits me beside Ian, and Lee, and Chloe, (aka all good friends) and expects me not to talk, when he KNOWS its all i do. like why. Oh, and when he marks my tests and i fail them i think he gets a hint of satisfaction when i fail, like a cat when it kills a bird, satisfaction from the death. In this case its the death of a students will to learn chemistry. but that could be one of those things i was born with.. oh well you can doubt genes right?
So today i went and got an x-ray on my wrist ( doctor injected cortisone into it and now it hurts ALOT) and i went there and the Radiologist that took my x-ray was a boy, and a cute boy at that. and you know what the coolest thing was, he told me that he went to school for 3 years, did NO chemistry and still gets paid what a nurse does, AND they are in demand. like how unfair is that. The coolest thing is they don't just give x-rays. they do ultrasounds and CT scans and all that fun stuff. I mean put yourself in th eposiion where your giving an ultrasound to a pregnant woman and she sees/ hears her first child's heartbeat for the first time. thats in itself would be uber rewarding. if you havnt guessed yet i want to be a nurse, because, when you help people get better, or just give them a smile and do them a favour thier opinion of you changes with that one split second, and you feel so good. That's the one feeling in the world that's my favourite. I wanna work with chronically ill (forever) kids that in one way the hospital is their home, they place where they can feel the most safe, and at ease. I want to that one person that holds their hand when they get a needle... i want to be the one person that made thier time on this big planet earth better. and this is starting to get really cheezy :P so ill stop.
On to a better topic YOUTUBE! so ive recently discovered Dave Days, who is the COOLEST PERSON EVER. im pretty sure when we meet we'll be bet friends forever.. as he loves miley cyrus but im gunna hit the hay.. sorry about all the spelling/grammatical errors, it is late and i am tired!

just remember ~An amateur built the ark, professionals built the Titanic~

Later Days,
Kait <3